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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Hm... since (P/)CI Guo Chen told me to blog, I'm at blogger again - "never defy your NCOs/sirs" lol.

Anyway gordon also told me to blog.

ZzZ I don't know what I want to blog about, wanted to blog since saturday but I was too lazy.
The best news this week is probably the fact that I passed campcraft :D Never mug for nothing :D Let's hope I pass road safety also so I can go for promotion test.
But if I get both badges then fail promotion test then.... =.=

Anyway there was Annual General meeting on monday, in the end no uniform check, wthell. Iron the pants + polish boots like gay in the end no uniform check, zzz
Wah the annual general meeting damn =.=, keep talking about total defence and napfa, stuff that I failed -.-

Marcus sir wants us to pass napfa. He wants our boots to be sibei imba -.-
He and Guo Chen sir ~~force~~ wants us to <3 NPCC.
zzz.

And today there was the spring cleaning session, which was much nicer then the previous one, probably cause a particular CI wasn't there, lols. The other time we spent so much time on the stupid tent sheet thing, think was arrange and arrange again or something, so pek chek. Today's one was like about 1/2 h sitting down there talking about MouseHunt, and lols, Terence(sir) didn't say a thing.

Haha, Bryan Ong (sir) managed to get a clock in 1 day.

Then there was this 15 mins extra session of campcraft-flagstuff. Then the knowledgeable Philmann ar, wah flagstuff imba kia sia, every thing Terence(sir) say he also make comment. Noisy like shit lar wth, cannot even concentrate on what the sir was saying. Feel like slapping that Failman. Why Tan Peng Ning never come out ask him knock it down, zzz

Haiz nothing else to blog.
(O.O this post so much singlish)
Kim Yao

Kim Yao @ Tuesday, December 29, 2009
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Friday, December 25, 2009

Am really tempted to go sleep now, but I saw a particular update on xxx's blog(involving skies and pockets) and I got motivated/reminded to blog. Actually was intending to blog tomorrow, + rant about NPCC training.

(And hi Guo Chen, here's your update)

Anyway I was reading this book from the library called "Perfect You". The main charecter (Kate Brown) of the story has a lazy brother who is "one with the couch", has a retarded father who gave up his life to sell vitamins at a shopping mall, and a best friend who seem to have abandoned Kate after she got famous.

Anyway, I feel that this Kate person is similar to me in some ways.

1. We both keep almost everything to ourselves.
We keep things to ourselves. We let misunderstandings happen. We bottle up all the feelings, and once we cannot take it anymore, we blow up. With impact.

Okay this one actually I can elaborate alot, but nvm, don't want elaborate. too lazy.

2. We both lost a good friend.
Decline to comment further, close friends would have known.
We both lost, and gained the good friend back. Happy ending. (:

3. We both use vulgarities when we get frustrated.
Even more don't need to comment, this one even more famous. Shouting that particular 4 letter word outside CPS parents corner.
EPIC FAIL.

hm... okay that's it, i think.

Anyway, I don't believe that everyone has a talent.

Cause I seem pretty average in everything I do.

If i have a talent, it's being talented in being average. (wait am I even making sense)

Anyway, this year I've had alot of self doubt. I attribute it to the "shouting the 4 letter word outside CPS" incident.

Even if I don't consider it entirely my fault, I can't believe that I actually shouted that. In public. In front of my primary school. Thank goodness I wasn't wearing my school uniform, or else. Anyway, that incident just goes to so how little discipline I have. How emotional am I.

And my point on having no discipline leads me to thinking that I don't deserve to be in my squad, which my sirs think that is very promising and has a bright future. I don't wish to drag the squad down in anyway. I don't wish to contribute negatively.

And that is pretty much why I went around looking for so much encouragement this year, sort of needed someone to believe in me.

Which sounds pretty pathetic. (to me, at least)

And to sum it all up, I've been a selfish bastard this year who hurt the people around me.

(This post sounds so emo, and assholes like Eun Seong will probably laugh when he reads this. If he laughs, I'll make sure he goes down)

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Anyway, here are some quotes from "Diary of an Anorexic Girl", the book I was reading before I read "Perfect You"

"Not really knowing what I was doing I took her bony pinky in mine and swore not to tell a soul"
- hm... making promises. Not a lot of meaning but... can use in compo? lol.

"Nobody truly knows me, but I suppose that's the way it is for everyone. Or at least I hope so. We seem to have the tendency to put a front in the best interest of ourselves, but eventually these fronts weld themselves to us until we no longer recognise our own souls in the mirror."
-Applies to me. I think.

"More then anything I want to be happy for her, but this feeling of jealousy keeps creeping up on me. I smile, but it feels fake. I try to push it down, but this resentment keeps rising because she gets to feel good and have her little transformation into a better person without suffering like I have been."
-Have felt this before. (note the her/him in the quotes are directly copied from the book, so it may not be the same in my situation.

'I just hate myself for because I'm what I always dreaded- average"
Definitely applies to me -.-

"People can make all kinds of plans, but only the Lord's plan will happen
PROVERBS 19:21"

Erm.. I think this is quoted from the Bible by the author. Quite meaningful/ (:

Okay that's all.
I'm going to sleep now, good night. (And Merry Christmas to all of you; Happy Birthday to Hui Ping)
Kim Yao

P.S. Happy Birthday to my squadmate John Phua, too

Edit: ZZZ I forgot to rant about NPCC. Probably will do that tomorrow.

Kim Yao @ Friday, December 25, 2009
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Thursday, December 17, 2009

Hi people, good morning. [12.33am]

Yesterday[which ended 33 mins ago], I had my last campcraft competition training, since I didn't get selected. I should be happy, since I don't need to attend further campcraft comp trainings for the holidays, and less stress for next year.

Anyway, the training started off with warm-ups, as usual. But today's warm up was drills instead of running or jogging. Oh well, practically screwed it up since I was only half awake and all the turning drills sounded so weird. I also don't remember the drill for marching -> hentak. I also don't remember the name of the sizing step 1[something like kelua baris] so when Terence sir gave the command i was ._. standing there.

And during hentak, I was asked to be timer for the first 1.5 min of my life.

"Left, left, left right..."
"YOU SURE YOUR SQUAD MATES CAN HEAR YOU?"
"LEFT, LEFT, LEFT RIGHT..."

In other words, it sucked. But I think I pissed him off when I didn't gave timing for keblakan pusing so another guy was appointed as timer. Sad case.

Anyway, after the drills some people were doing flagstuff and another group was going to do pegging ._. Unfortunately I was in the pegging group.

Haha, I forgot how to remove a peg from the ground so i just pulled it out with my bare hands. I think Terence didn't see that, otherwise I think I would have been knocked.

After that was... lashing. Lashings and knots are awesome because I can still remember how to do them, yeah~
There was a sec 2 senior who passed campcraft but don't know how to tie sheet bend/bent and fisherman's knot. =.= And he passed campcraft. Wth.

Anyway, when we were doing lashings we saw a giant centipede. Okay not really giant but i'll say it's freaking big. But sad for the centipede, it got pushed into the drain "holes" with a dowel pole.
Sec 2 senior pwn the centipede. lol

After the lashing and knots was the "now i will tell you that you are kicked out cause you suck so bad you might as well live with the centipede" part by CI Terence Tsang.

And so ya, I got kicked out. But at least got early release, at 11.00 -.-

That pretty sums up my last campcraft comp training.

Haiz, actually I wouldn't consider campcraft comp training a waste of time. I learnt stuff like pegging and flagstuff, and weird stuff like round turn 2 half hitches. And anyway, I think that flagstuff is totally awesome except for the pegging part cause I don't know how to do it. =.=
The idea of erecting a flag is totally cool.

Hm... Maybe if they teach new stuff next year I go apply again?
See how first, ;)

Kim Yao.

edit: This is probably my longest post on NPCC

Kim Yao @ Thursday, December 17, 2009
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Friday, December 11, 2009

Lol, I was reading my blog archives and I realised that there's a big difference between the way i blog in 2008 and now.
-I no longer use epic phrase like "exceptional", "voda voda", "silly people", etc.
-More and more "faces" appear on my post, like (: or -_-.
-I used to colour the words on my blogpost
-Other then the epic phrases, my use of words is also different
-My english was epic fail. [maybe it still is]

lol... this is damn epic
Me to Darren Lim: ask the immature girl[evonne] beside you to shut up.
Darren Lim to evonne:shut up.
Evonne to Darren Lim:ask the immature , childish, fishy, sneaky, starry starry night (from the blog skin) to shut up.
Darren Lim retorts back to the immature one and says: YOU SHUT UP LAH
from my archive also lol

Another epic one: [Guo Chen must read this arh]

Scary people I have met in my life (in ranking)
1. GSTLS (only I and Gordon knows who is this hahaz)
2. GST (not known to many)
3. Ms Chan
4. the raj, my retarded form teacher
5. NCOs in NPCC
6. Vincent Lo (变风，变雨)
7. People with extreme mood swings

1. I'm not afraid of the Raj -.- I'm only afraid of writing lines
2. Vincent Lo is too spastic. Dangerously spastic.
3. @ Guo Chen: I'm soooo afraid of Tan Peng Ning cause He's an NCO and he has extreme mood swing, so he's scary x2

Haiz, i go sleep liao. bb

Kim Yao @ Friday, December 11, 2009
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Sunday, December 6, 2009

I came here to blog simply because i'm bored to tears.

I can't play wolfteam anymore since my mouse is so spastic and it died on me just now. Haiz.
Anyone can lend me their mouse?

lol. When I'm super free, I can't play wolfteam
what a joke

Kim Yao @ Sunday, December 06, 2009
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Haiz, dunno why am I at blogger -.-

Probably cause I've got nothing else to do.[actually i do, but... never mind lols]

lols, 1st of Dec. One month of holiday past. That was fast =.=

Schools going to start soon... and omg i dunnno where the sec 2s sit for morning flag raising. Later i go there then blur blur then embarrass myself. -.-

Anyway, 1 month of holidays have past yeah? And I've done nothing constructive -.-

And Goh Wei Ling was telling me yesterday that she's going to start mugging starting from today. She say "I mug so early because i never get the 1.00 msg".

Easy for her to say cause she got it before. I never even get 1.00+ msg before, except this year eoy.

Hm.... maybe I'll stop slacking so much also. Actually I considered studying some stuff for next year but I don't even know what are they going to teach for subjects like history and geography. Haiz. I tried reading my lit book next year[To kill a mockingbird] but I didn't understand it and I fell asleep on my father's car reading it. ohwellz.

And considering the fact that there won't be much 6/6 outing anymore, I should have more spare time. But there's always campcraft comp to spoil everything, damn it. [why can't terence sir just kick me out]

hm... shall go do math tuition homework while sounding horn.

Kim Yao

Kim Yao @ Tuesday, December 01, 2009
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Hello Uncle...Bah Chor Mee one. I want chilli plus tur Kwa plus can I watch your CCTV playback of Jeff Lopez...=D