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Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Wah sian tell Yu Jia not to tag me already, then he still tag me, then now Marcus Goh know my blog. Zzzz if spread somemore i think i going to change my url or lock my blog up. NCO know your blog ar... very jia lat leh

Like how today Marcus Sir was asking me about the "shouting f**k outside parents corner" incident, then i don't know how answer him then i go buy 2 chrysanthemum tea. sianz

I think i come here just to say that Marcus Sir now knows my blog. And cause SMB fail me then i can't do my work there. zzz

bye lol.

Kim Yao @ Wednesday, February 03, 2010
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Sunday, January 17, 2010

Making use of the next 6 mins to post whatever bullcrap I want to say.

Okay Sec 2 life sucks. Stupid future school pilot project drives me insane. The school so slow, don't want give me my laptop. And at the end of this year have streaming, makes me pek chek. My minimum aim is to stay in IP, I don't want get kicked out.

Oh and speaking of that I most probably quit wolfteam, cause I've got no chance to play it and I probably don't want to play it anymore. But I still slack alot leh, like today, barely did anywork. Probably cause of the sore throat, flu and cough. zzz. I don't want to fall sick. Can't afford to miss school. After the NPCC training on friday I abit sick liao. :/

NPCC driving me nuts also. Promotion test in 2 weeks. My drills not up to standard. My uniform is fail. My commanding is also fail. My theory... havn't learn yet, except NPCC pledge.
Must iron pants more.
Must polish boots more.
Must season my beret more.

Oh and my right boot cracks whenever I use it. Like walk ar then confirm crack one. What the fish la.

oh my fish I really really want to get promoted :(
I don't want to remain as cadet/private/no rank kia.
ZZZ the other time i was this anxious for a test was for campcraft.

Since my class is always at the street soccer court nowdays, I shall drag someone with me to EP3 shed to do drills/command -.-
Wah damn sian later the NCC ppl come extra extra then niao us.

Kim Yao

Kim Yao @ Sunday, January 17, 2010
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Friday, January 1, 2010

Haha, I feel obliged to blog on the first day of 2010.

So I'm now officially a Sec 2. Which means,
1. Got juniors for NPCC, zzz
2. More stress - end of this year have "streaming". zzz I just hope I don't get kicked out of IP, O.O
3. Haiz, need do more stuff for NAPFA (epic GG)

Anyway, today went for a movie trip with ex classmates (: Too bad Gordon was at home making sandwiches, -_- I found out that if you confirmed your attendance but dun turn up, it's really damn pissing. So that was what the sec3 felt when I forgot to go for CARP, argh. Anyway, we went to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks. Uber cute~ (I sound gay)

ZZZ nothing else to blog about, lols, random fact is that I went out for 12h today -.-

And by the way, next time you want to do something involving another person (like want go someone else's house, taking today's incident as example), ask that person if he or she is fine with it okay? Don't sandwich that person in between, which is... inconsiderate? lol. My vocab not very strong, sorry -.-

Hm... I realised that I use proper English when I get really pissed/agitated.

Kim Yao - wishing anyone who's reading this a Happy New Year!

Kim Yao @ Friday, January 01, 2010
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Hm... since (P/)CI Guo Chen told me to blog, I'm at blogger again - "never defy your NCOs/sirs" lol.

Anyway gordon also told me to blog.

ZzZ I don't know what I want to blog about, wanted to blog since saturday but I was too lazy.
The best news this week is probably the fact that I passed campcraft :D Never mug for nothing :D Let's hope I pass road safety also so I can go for promotion test.
But if I get both badges then fail promotion test then.... =.=

Anyway there was Annual General meeting on monday, in the end no uniform check, wthell. Iron the pants + polish boots like gay in the end no uniform check, zzz
Wah the annual general meeting damn =.=, keep talking about total defence and napfa, stuff that I failed -.-

Marcus sir wants us to pass napfa. He wants our boots to be sibei imba -.-
He and Guo Chen sir ~~force~~ wants us to <3 NPCC.
zzz.

And today there was the spring cleaning session, which was much nicer then the previous one, probably cause a particular CI wasn't there, lols. The other time we spent so much time on the stupid tent sheet thing, think was arrange and arrange again or something, so pek chek. Today's one was like about 1/2 h sitting down there talking about MouseHunt, and lols, Terence(sir) didn't say a thing.

Haha, Bryan Ong (sir) managed to get a clock in 1 day.

Then there was this 15 mins extra session of campcraft-flagstuff. Then the knowledgeable Philmann ar, wah flagstuff imba kia sia, every thing Terence(sir) say he also make comment. Noisy like shit lar wth, cannot even concentrate on what the sir was saying. Feel like slapping that Failman. Why Tan Peng Ning never come out ask him knock it down, zzz

Haiz nothing else to blog.
(O.O this post so much singlish)
Kim Yao

Kim Yao @ Tuesday, December 29, 2009
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Friday, December 25, 2009

Am really tempted to go sleep now, but I saw a particular update on xxx's blog(involving skies and pockets) and I got motivated/reminded to blog. Actually was intending to blog tomorrow, + rant about NPCC training.

(And hi Guo Chen, here's your update)

Anyway I was reading this book from the library called "Perfect You". The main charecter (Kate Brown) of the story has a lazy brother who is "one with the couch", has a retarded father who gave up his life to sell vitamins at a shopping mall, and a best friend who seem to have abandoned Kate after she got famous.

Anyway, I feel that this Kate person is similar to me in some ways.

1. We both keep almost everything to ourselves.
We keep things to ourselves. We let misunderstandings happen. We bottle up all the feelings, and once we cannot take it anymore, we blow up. With impact.

Okay this one actually I can elaborate alot, but nvm, don't want elaborate. too lazy.

2. We both lost a good friend.
Decline to comment further, close friends would have known.
We both lost, and gained the good friend back. Happy ending. (:

3. We both use vulgarities when we get frustrated.
Even more don't need to comment, this one even more famous. Shouting that particular 4 letter word outside CPS parents corner.
EPIC FAIL.

hm... okay that's it, i think.

Anyway, I don't believe that everyone has a talent.

Cause I seem pretty average in everything I do.

If i have a talent, it's being talented in being average. (wait am I even making sense)

Anyway, this year I've had alot of self doubt. I attribute it to the "shouting the 4 letter word outside CPS" incident.

Even if I don't consider it entirely my fault, I can't believe that I actually shouted that. In public. In front of my primary school. Thank goodness I wasn't wearing my school uniform, or else. Anyway, that incident just goes to so how little discipline I have. How emotional am I.

And my point on having no discipline leads me to thinking that I don't deserve to be in my squad, which my sirs think that is very promising and has a bright future. I don't wish to drag the squad down in anyway. I don't wish to contribute negatively.

And that is pretty much why I went around looking for so much encouragement this year, sort of needed someone to believe in me.

Which sounds pretty pathetic. (to me, at least)

And to sum it all up, I've been a selfish bastard this year who hurt the people around me.

(This post sounds so emo, and assholes like Eun Seong will probably laugh when he reads this. If he laughs, I'll make sure he goes down)

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Anyway, here are some quotes from "Diary of an Anorexic Girl", the book I was reading before I read "Perfect You"

"Not really knowing what I was doing I took her bony pinky in mine and swore not to tell a soul"
- hm... making promises. Not a lot of meaning but... can use in compo? lol.

"Nobody truly knows me, but I suppose that's the way it is for everyone. Or at least I hope so. We seem to have the tendency to put a front in the best interest of ourselves, but eventually these fronts weld themselves to us until we no longer recognise our own souls in the mirror."
-Applies to me. I think.

"More then anything I want to be happy for her, but this feeling of jealousy keeps creeping up on me. I smile, but it feels fake. I try to push it down, but this resentment keeps rising because she gets to feel good and have her little transformation into a better person without suffering like I have been."
-Have felt this before. (note the her/him in the quotes are directly copied from the book, so it may not be the same in my situation.

'I just hate myself for because I'm what I always dreaded- average"
Definitely applies to me -.-

"People can make all kinds of plans, but only the Lord's plan will happen
PROVERBS 19:21"

Erm.. I think this is quoted from the Bible by the author. Quite meaningful/ (:

Okay that's all.
I'm going to sleep now, good night. (And Merry Christmas to all of you; Happy Birthday to Hui Ping)
Kim Yao

P.S. Happy Birthday to my squadmate John Phua, too

Edit: ZZZ I forgot to rant about NPCC. Probably will do that tomorrow.

Kim Yao @ Friday, December 25, 2009
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Thursday, December 17, 2009

Hi people, good morning. [12.33am]

Yesterday[which ended 33 mins ago], I had my last campcraft competition training, since I didn't get selected. I should be happy, since I don't need to attend further campcraft comp trainings for the holidays, and less stress for next year.

Anyway, the training started off with warm-ups, as usual. But today's warm up was drills instead of running or jogging. Oh well, practically screwed it up since I was only half awake and all the turning drills sounded so weird. I also don't remember the drill for marching -> hentak. I also don't remember the name of the sizing step 1[something like kelua baris] so when Terence sir gave the command i was ._. standing there.

And during hentak, I was asked to be timer for the first 1.5 min of my life.

"Left, left, left right..."
"YOU SURE YOUR SQUAD MATES CAN HEAR YOU?"
"LEFT, LEFT, LEFT RIGHT..."

In other words, it sucked. But I think I pissed him off when I didn't gave timing for keblakan pusing so another guy was appointed as timer. Sad case.

Anyway, after the drills some people were doing flagstuff and another group was going to do pegging ._. Unfortunately I was in the pegging group.

Haha, I forgot how to remove a peg from the ground so i just pulled it out with my bare hands. I think Terence didn't see that, otherwise I think I would have been knocked.

After that was... lashing. Lashings and knots are awesome because I can still remember how to do them, yeah~
There was a sec 2 senior who passed campcraft but don't know how to tie sheet bend/bent and fisherman's knot. =.= And he passed campcraft. Wth.

Anyway, when we were doing lashings we saw a giant centipede. Okay not really giant but i'll say it's freaking big. But sad for the centipede, it got pushed into the drain "holes" with a dowel pole.
Sec 2 senior pwn the centipede. lol

After the lashing and knots was the "now i will tell you that you are kicked out cause you suck so bad you might as well live with the centipede" part by CI Terence Tsang.

And so ya, I got kicked out. But at least got early release, at 11.00 -.-

That pretty sums up my last campcraft comp training.

Haiz, actually I wouldn't consider campcraft comp training a waste of time. I learnt stuff like pegging and flagstuff, and weird stuff like round turn 2 half hitches. And anyway, I think that flagstuff is totally awesome except for the pegging part cause I don't know how to do it. =.=
The idea of erecting a flag is totally cool.

Hm... Maybe if they teach new stuff next year I go apply again?
See how first, ;)

Kim Yao.

edit: This is probably my longest post on NPCC

Kim Yao @ Thursday, December 17, 2009
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Hello Uncle...Bah Chor Mee one. I want chilli plus tur Kwa plus can I watch your CCTV playback of Jeff Lopez...=D